Total Graceland

its funny because in the Paul Simon lyrics to Graceland (which is currently one of my most favorite things, ever), 'losing love' can be replaced with 'oozing love' for the same sort of insightful truth. At first, I heard the song as "oozing". Perhaps that's because it's how I saw it.

And she said losing love
is like a window in your heart
everybody sees your blown apart
everybody sees the wind blow

So both losing and oozing love blows us apart
and puts us all back together.

It got me thinking of love, and how ridicously luck I am to have so many phenomenal people who actually, really love me, and I them. It's really hard when I can't be there to share that with all of you, but just really...how amazing is this thing??? Blowing us apart. It's almost..like..literally...we've been blown apart...picture me flowing and flailing through the air, heading towards Spain, and you, spinning around getting tossed up into the air in St. Louis, Seattle, Portland, wherever; and that's love that tosses us, and turns us, actually pulls US apart--maybe love of self, of adventure, experiencing life, etc--and LOOK(!)..You can see the wind blowing in between us, but that just means there is so much more space for us to fill with love. It's this same love that when you love people, you'll shatter them, you'll challenge them to look within themselves, to recreate, to rebecome, to understand who THEY are by YOU, and by themselves, and this is a shattering, an obliterating and we need our friends and people that love us for this, and then it's recreation, too. It's the shattering and the recreation that's the love. It's shattering and the wind--the others' energy, the others' love--dancing around the peices and putting it all back together for you, with you, in a new and different way, and then here you are. Here we are. And Paul Simon's done it again. And the way that he puts it to music..heartwrenching, to be conservative.

Conclusion of Post: I absolutely LOVE and ADORE YOU and I'm thankful for all that you do--for me, for yourselves--and it's really hard to be away from you, and to be away from this glorious, changing, challenging, mystifying and exhilirating process of breaking and exploding back together again. Always..like everyday...in big and little ways.

also, "everybody sees the wind blows" = transparency is love. !

Stage Lights, Please.

My creative talents and energies weren't going to use at my job so I decided to start an English theater troop with the older kids. Auditions begin in two weeks. With a group of about 5 selected kids, we'll be collaborating together to write a script and perform for the school! Weeeeee!

Woke up feelin the struggs

Sometimes, every day is a struggle in Spain. I guess that is often the fate of an ex-pat without a purpose, though.

"Purpose and love stick together"

But then after this mind-blowing sunset, maybe that'd be the struggle anywhere. Trudging through the mud of the unknown, going towards nothing, and something--that's the battle from anywhere. That's the battle for a lot of us right now, I think it's just added struggs when sparring from another country.

And maybe the struggle is the right thing.