Written Yesterday

Written yesterday:

I miss Catherine Sophie Naguine Olga Alison Kari Tyler Kevin Jake Olivia Abbey Alex my family my cats Kyle Raphael Marie Courtney Emanuel Daniel Lindsay Paul Lauren Matt. Some of you occupy my conscious thoughts even multiple times per week! Sometimes in the peripheries of my unconscious thoughts, you make appearances. And in my dreams. Last night I had a particularly strong one and when I took a siesta today, another equally powerful one. Some of you played big parts. One of you surprised me and then we surprised another, and in another dream, I killed one of you (oops!). [I've been writing down a lot of my dreams here in random scrap pieces of paper that I will probably come across later maybe when I'm living in New York one day rummaging through old luggage.

I think I might be ready to come home. That's all there is to it! I'm not going to lie--I looked around my room today for my American cell phone just to read through old text messages-->that's how homesick I am. My travels to Portgual (a great country which you will hear about in a few days, fret not) taught me that maybe I am a little done with Europe for the time being. It taught me that perhaps right now (I can't make real generalizations about 'this stage of my life' because my mind changes really quickly!) it is not the place but the people. I'm going with that.

So what does that mean for the rest of my time here? Well, it means that, firstly, if I get this internship in Wales, I will work on a plan to stay in Europe until the end of June (which I have semi-devised). If not, I could come back as early as the begining of June.

I know one thing. And maybe ONLY one thing: Love. And I'm talking a different kind.